“The Hymn My Mother Taught Me” written by Charlotte Maria Tucker (A.L.O.E.) is about temptation.
“Get away with ye, will ye, Ben Madden! I don’t want you asneaking about my stall to see what you can be laying your fingers on!” exclaimed Betty Wiggins, the cross old dame who sold biscuits and cakes at the corner of High Street.
The poor orphan boy thus rudely addressed slunk back a pace or two from the tempting stall. His young heart was burning with anger, and indignant tears rose into his eyes. “I never in my life took what did not belong to me,” muttered Ben; “my poor mother taught me something better than that.”
Betty Wiggins might have given a kind word to the lonely child, if she had given no more. Ben Madden had lately lost his mother, a poor industrious widow, who had worked as long as her fingers could work to support herself and her orphan boy. Alice Madden had died in peace and faith, commending her child to the care of Him who hath said, “I will never leave thee nor forsake.”
Poor Ben seemed to have a hard life-struggle before him. He had no relative living but a sailor uncle, who might, for aught he knew, be on the other side of the world. There was none to care whether the orphan slept under a roof or an archway, whether he fed or whether he starved. Betty, who had known his mother for years, might have spared him one of those biscuits and never have missed it amongst so many: so thought Ben, who, since rising at day break, had not tasted a morsel of food.
As Ben stood leaning against an area railing, looking wistfully at the piles of cakes and gingerbread nuts, a light cart, in which was seated a reckless young driver urging on an excited horse, was whisked round the corner of High Street with such careless speed, that it knocked over the stall, and threw its contents on the pavement. What a scatter was there of tartlets and cakes, bits of toffee and rock, biscuits, bull’s-eyes, almonds, and buns, and sticks of bright barley sugar! Had the stall-woman been any other than cross Betty Wiggins, Ben would have run forward to help her to pick up her goods, which were rolling about in every direction. But a feeling of resentment filled the soul of the boy: he was not sorry for Betty’s disaster. “She bade me keep off,” thought the child, “and I will; she would not trust me to pick up her biscuits.”
Ben would not go to the cakes, but one of the cakes came to him. A beautiful pink one, studded with almonds, and frosted with sugar, rolled close up to his feet. Betty did not mark this, for with clenched hand and flashing eyes she was pouring a torrent of abuse after the careless driver whose cart had done the mischief, which the youth would not stop to repair. Ben saw the cake—the delicious pink cake: what a temptation to a half-famished boy! Forgetful of his own words so lately uttered, in a moment the child caught it up, and hurried away down the street, leaving Betty to abuse the driver, set up the stall, and recover such of her dainties as had not been smashed on the pavement.
Before Ben had walked many steps he had eagerly swallowed the cake: having once tasted its sweetness, he felt as if nothing could stop him from eating the whole. Ben had committed his first theft—he had forgotten the words of his mother—he had broken the law of his God. Let none of my readers deem his fault a small one, or think that little harm could come from a hungry boy’s eating a single cake that had rolled to his feet. Ben’s enjoyment was quickly over; what had pleased his taste had but whetted his hunger; and it seemed as if with that stolen morsel evil had entered into the boy. Every time that we yield to temptation we have less power to resist it in future. Many sinful thoughts came into the mind of Ben as he lounged through the streets. Never before had he so envied the rich—those who could feast every day upon dainties. With a covetous eye he gazed into shops filled with good things which he could not buy. With a repining, discontented spirit he thought of his own hard lot. Why had his mother been taken from him? why had he been left to sorrow and want?
Then, in this dangerous state of mind, Ben began to consider how he could find means of supplying his need. He did not think now of prayer; he did not think of asking his heavenly Father to open some course before him by which he might honestly earn his bread. Ben remembered how that sharp lad Dennis O’Wiley had told him that he knew ways and means by which a lad could push himself on in the world. When Ben had repeated these words to his mother, she had warned him against Dennis O’Wiley; she had said that he feared neither God nor man, and would end his days in a prison. Ben had resolved, in obedience to his parent, never to keep company with the lad; but, since stealing that pink sugared cake, Ben found his resolution beginning to waver. He could see no great harm in Dennis, as good-natured a fellow as ever was born; why should he not ask a bit of advice from a chap who seemed always to find out some way of getting whatever he wanted?
Alas, poor Ben! he had been like one standing at a spot where two roads branch off—the strait one leading to life, the broad one leading to destruction: his first theft was like his first step in the fatal downward road. But for a little incident which I am going to relate, the widow’s son might have gone from evil to evil, from sinful thoughts to wicked deeds, till his heart had grown hard and his conscience dead, and he had led a life of guilt and of shame, to close in misery and ruin.
As Ben was sauntering down a street, half resolved to seek Dennis O’Wiley, his ear caught the sound of music. It came from an open door, leading into an infant school. Ben, who dearly loved music, drew near, and listened to the childish voices singing a well-known hymn. Very heavy grew the heart of the boy, and his eyes were dimmed with tears, for he heard the familiar words,—
“Oh, that will be joyful
When we meet to part no more!”
Ben’s lips quivered as he murmured to himself, “That is the hymn my mother taught me.”
What seeming trifles will sometimes change the whole current of our thoughts! The sound of that music brought vividly before the mind of poor Ben his mother’s face as she lay on her sick-bed—the touch of her hand, her fond look of love, her dying words of advice to her son. It was as if she had come back to earth to stop her poor boy on his downward way. His thoughts were recalled to God and heaven, to that bright home to which he felt that his mother had gone, and where he hoped one day to join her—the blessed mansions prepared by the Saviour for those who love and obey Him.
“Holy children will be there
Who have sought the Lord by prayer.”
Ben turned away with almost a bursting heart. Heaven is not for the unholy, the disobedient, the covetous, for those who take what is not their own. If he went on in the fatal course on which he had entered that day, he would never again meet his mother—he would never be “joyful” in heaven! Was it too late to turn back? Might he not ask God’s forgiveness, and pray for grace to lead a new life?
“Yes,” thought the penitent child; “I will never forget my mother’s wishes, I will follow my mother’s ways. With the very first money that I get I will pay for the cake that I stole.”
The strength of Ben’s resolution was very soon put to the test. Scarcely had he made this silent promise, when a carriage, with a lady inside it, was driven up to the school, and as there was no footman with it, and the coachman could not leave the box, Ben ran forward to open the door, and guard the lady’s dress from the wheel. The lady smiled kindly on the child, and taking a penny from her bag, dropped it into his hand.
Here was a penny honestly earned; a penny that would buy two stale rolls to satisfy the hunger of Ben. Could it be wrong thus to spend it? Had he received it an hour before, Ben would have run to a baker’s shop and laid out the money in bread; but conscience now whispered to Ben that he had a debt to discharge, that that penny by right was Betty’s, and that his first duty was to pay for the cake which he had wrongfully taken.
“But I’m so hungry!” thought Ben, as he looked on the copper in his hand. “I will buy what I need with this penny, and pay my debt with the next. But yet”—thus went on the struggle between self-will and conscience—“my mother taught me that to put off doing what is right, is actually doing what is wrong. Often have I heard her say, When conscience points out a difficult duty, don’t wait in hopes that it will grow easy.” Ben turned in the direction of High Street; but before he had taken two steps on his way, pride offered another temptation. “I can’t bear to go up to Betty,” thought Ben, “and tell her that I stole her cake!” He stopped short as the thought crossed his mind. “But can’t I walk by her stall, and just drop the penny on it as I pass, and say nothing to bring myself shame?” A little reflection showed Ben that this could not be done. “She’d be crying out again, ‘Get away with ye;’ she’d think I was fingering her cakes. Besides”—here conscience spoke strongly once more—“does not the Bible tell us to confess our faults one to another? Is it not the brave, the right way, to go straight to the persons we’ve wronged, and tell them we’re sorry for the past?”
It was a hard struggle for Ben; and when, with a short, silent prayer for help, he walked on again towards High Street, the child was more of a true hero than many who have earned medals and fame. He was conquering Satan, he was conquering self, he was bearing hunger and daring shame, that he might be honest and truthful.
Ben soon came in sight of Betty and her stall; it seemed to the boy that the wrinkled old face looked more cross and peevish than ever. A sailor was standing beside the woman, buying some gingerbread nuts. “Now, or never,” thought Ben, who did not trust himself to delay, now that his mind was made up. His face flushed to the roots of his hair with the effort that he was making; the child walked straight up to the stall, laid his penny upon it, and said, “I took one of your cakes today—I’m sorry—there is the money for it!”
“Well, Ben Madden,” exclaimed the old woman in surprise, “you’re an honester lad than I took you for; you mind what your mother taught you.”
“Ben Madden!” cried the sailor, looking hard at the orphan boy; “that’s a name I know well. Can this be the son of the sister whom I have not set eyes on these seven long years?”
“His mother was the widow of big Ben the glazier,” said Betty, “who died by a fall from a window.”
“The very same!” cried the sailor, grasping the hand of his nephew, and giving it a hearty shake. “What a lucky chance that we met! And where’s your mother, my boy?”
Tears gushed into poor Ben’s eyes, as in a low voice he answered, “In heaven.”
The seaman’s rough hearty manner instantly changed; he turned away his head, and was silent for several minutes, as if struggling with feelings to which he was ashamed to give way. Then laying his brown hand on the shoulder of his nephew, he said, in a kindly tone, “So you’ve neither father nor mother, poor child; you’re all alone in the world! I’ll be a father to you, for the sake of poor, dear Alice.”
Fervently did poor little Ben thank God, who had thus provided for him a friend when he most needed and least expected to find one! With wonder, the orphan silently traced the steps by which his heavenly Father had led him. What a mercy it was that he had passed near the school—that he had heard the hymn—that he had resolved to be honest—and that his resolution had brought him to the cake-woman’s stall when the sailor was standing beside it! Had Ben delayed but for ten minutes he would never have met his uncle! Yes; in future life the orphan frequently owned that all his earthly comforts had sprung from the decision which he had been strengthened to make when, at the turning-point of his course, he had stood at the door of the infant school, listening with a penitent heart to the hymn which his mother had taught him!